Tonight I’ll be a dust mote on the red desk. An ant crawling outside the house. Tonight I’ll slip between my shadow and yours. Lock my door. Hide in the closet. Cover myself with caution tape. Bathe in trash. Tonight I’ll be the rabbit’s heartbeat and quivering nose. I’ll pretend I’m dead. Pretend I’m on Mars. Tonight I’ll forget.
Tonight I’ll speak in tongues. Tonight I’ll fly at you— become a hundred palmetto bugs. Sting you like a jellyfish. Watch from the ceiling. Film everything. Take notes. Hide inside a book. Call on God. Jesus. Buddha. Kali. Granny. Tonight I’ll forget.
Tonight you’ll cry before. During. After. Tonight you’ll admit you’ve done wrong. You’ll stop. You’ll stop. You’ll stop. Tonight I’ll forget.
Tonight you’ll stay the fuck away. Get help. Get me help. Tonight it ends. Tonight I’ll fight back. Tonight I’ll forget.
Tonight I’ll kill you in your sleep. Tonight I’ll cut myself. Swallow pills. Kill myself. Tonight I’ll forget.
Tonight I’ll stare you in the eyes the whole time and make you watch. Tonight I’ll forget.
Tonight.
Forget.
Tonight.