each year I want to but can’t shed my bones watch
myself from any day other than the present there has to be
a way to lose this velvet all I wasn’t in the mirror
I should be growing this unending rain clinking off
the tin roof into the drainpipes the weather said rain
for days last night I woke with pain changes
in the barometric pressure I felt in my joints
not wanting to inherit this inheriting it nonetheless
from my father asleep downstairs on the couch I want
to wake him and tell him all I dreamed about the deer