if you believe I can keep a diary
if I can love more than one person
if I kiss you without regret
if the counterfeit bird is real
if I fell into a deep love affair
if I could be quiet
or leave the house
if the explanation would float
if I could undress without feeling sad
if I could live without letting down others
if the open band of my heart wasn’t bleeding exits
if my anger held your doves
if doves exist
if you suppose I could
love you
if you were nostalgic like that (I’m nostalgic like that)
if you could see me laughing
if you forgave me for being stoned
if you misunderstood my flirtation for anything more
if I could choose more than contentment
if I could love you and another,
you lord with your tender
let me buckle us in a church,
be the man who opens me
who wakes me
if I forgave you for all the crimes in the world
for drinking too much wine
if we touched or didn’t touch, if our love was counterfeit
birds, I think I could hear you
speak to me and then I would sing out