sitting on a man’s face with Catfished blaring on the wall-mounted television
to out-sound our sex noise, because his mother is hosting brunch downstairs,
sitting on his face after waking from fitful sleep, nine hours of leaning
into my breath to steady an erratic heartbeat, counting up to ten
and back to one because I should feel so good with my warm lover curled
around me and the hundred short drives of seeing his hometown
and eating its burritos on its beaches and laughing at the worlds’ fair architecture
and how the radiant city movement was an orchestrated intimidation
beloved by fascists as much as our kid selves loved Balboa Park and hollered
into its scientific instruments, whispered into the dish that sent my whisper
to the room’s opposite corner, and I count my breaths up to ten and back
to one while road noise filters up the valleys and through my hollow earbones
and into my hollow body that even after all this sun and sex and exercise
wont process serotonin, even full of love and burritos and beaches feels hollow, even
awake and sitting on his face while laughter filters up the stairs and while we shush
each other, up the volume until the woman on the television reveals
that she was catfishing her ex-husband all along, wanted him back and wanted it
blasted on television, good and public, and we are shushing while the flat screen
and the white elephant are laughing louder and louder and I come wondering if I’d be
proud to know my son so loved to please his women, even the un-pleasable ones