In Which I Gather up Horrors for the Hero

He’s asleep in my sheets,
my bleach-white sails
that jettison seas in the songs
as close to us as blood: how
the old cyclops was blinded,
how men can risk hell, hazard
halls of the dead for snarls
of rank gold hair, decimate
armies with ham-fisted ease.
I am lighting a cigarette at
the window now. I am thinking
of stories I haven’t told him:
how we give our champions
new names in our heads,
how they only hold
our attention in states
of emergency. Three true
things I can say about heroes
at rest: they are dull, dull,
dull. Sometimes he shifts
in blankets, pinches his brow
as if he can feel my rattlesnake
stare. Look at his beautiful
stomach, balloon of the lungs,
its metronome dead-lifts,
sudden deflation. My hero:
a ship licked by crests
on the wine-dark sea.
I don’t know why I lean over
him some nights and speak
poison, pour wicked baddies
into his ear, villains to hate
and to hurt. I don’t know
why I can only tell the truth
when he’s asleep, when I
can look at his face and see,
finally, something frail
and breakable, a paper
boat adrift on savage seas.