I dream that I need to get to Korea,
but the cabs will never come, only
 
a rental car held together with duct tape.
I wonder if my poems can be folded
 
into a tiny boat large enough
to carry me across the yellow sea
 
and deliver me to my birthmother—
a saleswoman who graduated high school,
 
who found my birth unfavorable,
who met my father at a pleasure garden—
 
a married man.
 
I teach two adopted Asian girls,
one from China, one from a country I can’t pronounce.
 
They know they miss their birthmothers.
I’m only beginning to recognize my abandonment.
 
I am only beginning to fold
my birth records into paper airplanes.