the sky is not yet dark
i open my eyes
and a hawk swallows
the moon
i never really wanted
to touch you–
now there are shells
covering my fingernails
what i wanted was to lick
the dust from your wings
i cough and a white moth
flies from my throat
its body floats
in the space left by moon
now there is river water
running through my veins
the hawk is choking
blood and spit in feathered collar
i never really wanted
to fuck you–
i close my eyes
and the sky fades to blue
what i wanted
was to be born inside you
a hawk is coughing
up the moon