father spreads Miracle Whip onto my palms,
leads me to a hive on the back porch.
He says, hold
them in front of you and close your eyes. When my lids
lift open I see bees,
golden storm humming in my hand
– their small tongues
washing onto my skin in a whisper
of sweet. It tickles.
The beginning is always good.
When I realize what they are, remember their stingers,
start to cry, beg my father to make it stop,
please make them leave.
He says to close my eyes again, and when
I open them, the insects are gone.
I told my mother
this story, years later.
She said it wasn’t true.
I must have dreamed it as a child, but when I reach
for the quick fingers of my thieving memory,
I remember the feeling of wanting
until I no longer wanted, of my father
at home and standing over me
like some god I did not have a name for.
Jessica Lynn Suchon is the author of Scavenger, winner of the 2018 Vinyl 45 Chapbook Contest and forthcoming from YesYes Books in 2019. She received her MFA from Southern Illinois University and has received honors from the Academy of American Poets, as well as an Aspen Words Emerging Writer Fellowship. Her work has appeared or is forthcoming in Copper Nickel, Willow Springs, Ninth Letter, Yemassee, Muzzle Magazine, and RHINO Poetry, among others. She is a 2019 Tennessee Playwrights Studio Fellow and the 2019 Femoire Poet-in-Residence. Her librettos have appeared or are forthcoming in works by Stephanie Ann Boyd for the Eureka Ensemble, EKMELES vocal ensemble, and Æpex Contemporary Performance with the Dark Sky Project.